Monday, December 05, 2005

Now punch out the walls
And then shatter the windows
Of my brain, hollowed out

Enough Isn't Enough

My company is only myself now
To argue here
And sift through what you had left me
Generosity was never your thing
I understand that but couldn’t you
Have made and exception for what I wanted most?
I tried to slow the clocks while holding my breath
But finally collapsed when you said enough is enough
Enough isn’t enough
What I had was never enough
You couldn’t pity me enough?
Returning my heart so bruised was enough
But I’m fine now that the bandages have fallen of and I’m calloused
Until I see you again
I hope this is what you wanted

Drained

Spilled myself for you
I was broken
Thrown to the fire
Left to drown
Caught into
Overwhelmed
Repeated
Repentances so hollow
Your empty hands always hid from mine
I could have loved if I was let to
I was always the one choosing
But only now do I stay outside
Before and now I am sleepless
You could drain me until I cannot crawl

Watch Me

Always behind
Left to sleep only in your shadow
Separate myself
I need to bring my head back to me
I need to cut apart the black
From the grays
The innocence, my sight
Has been taken from me
For so long, blind
I can feel your bricks upon my shoulders
I’ll vomit what you have spoonfed me
I’ll cut off what has been branded into me
The heat of anger
Fogs my vision
But I keep swinging
Until collapse